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THE
GREY MATTER
How common is that you detour
your way as soon as you see a pit hole on road you are walking on. The process
looks so effortlessly outwardly, but inside it is collaborative effort of
millions of nerves, sparking one another to carry the impulses so the process
could be carried out. It's the inborn duty of grey matter to process,
assimilate and sieve out such coded transcription. What happens when this
basic, not so noticed process, starts to fail?
Only
the unexpected come forward.
THE MUNDANE AFFAIR
Once upon a time, she was just
another 23 years old having a life of a commoner, passed school and college in
good grades and took out to become a teacher. Riding her white scooty from her
house to school and then back forth was her day start and day end things.
Assimilating her in attendance registers, checking assignments and preparation
of mark sheets were her small feathers, that decor of her hat. It was when she
turned 23 last year; a thrill came to her life. Her parents choose a guy for
her to get hitched and through him springs return with full blossomed roses in
the courtship period. She savour every second of her association with her
fiancée.
The things, which once, were of
least concerned, became her top priority which included her nail paint, hair bands,
eyeliner, kajal, colorful dresses and the list goes on and on.
They were supposed to get hitched
on December 5 last year. As the date neared the preparation went or in full swing.
They got engaged in October.
But just after their engagement,
things happened that jeopardized everything, engulfing away all the joy and
liveliness from her and leaving nothing but dysfunctional and screwed up GREY matter.
THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL...
Well what I am about to tell is
something very unbelievable but this is the exact series of event that happened
bereft everyone with any logical explanations to this course of its unfolding.
After her engagement in
mid-October, her family decided to go for a laser surgery for her eyes, to go glass
free. {Trust me many girls take up this decision as soon as their marriage gets
fixed.} But at same time they decided to keep it a covert affair.
Three days after the engagement
the surgery was conducted and it was successful one. She returned home the very
same day.
But since then the things start
to get reshuffle. The road that was running so smooth started to be bumpy. The
difficulty with her was spinning lies about her whereabouts, whenever her
fiancée called to meet.
To hide one fact, ten lies were
spoken and to hide ten, millions followed the league. To tell lie was not her
trait and this burned a hole in her conscience. [Totally ironic for any
Delhites]
She started to become paranoid,
everything became hazy and her judgment was clouded. She always had a fear that
she would be caught red handed and which would devastate her image in front of
her in- laws.
Brooding, loathing melancholy
made marble roads into her psyche and corrupted her grey matter.
Within a month of the surgery,
the covert feelings and suppressed emotions took a toll of her and not only she
lost weight but also all the happiness which came with her short courtship. Her
silence created a rift between her and her fiancée and made her in -laws
worrisome. The charms that she felt at wavering thought of marriage and the
blush on her cheeks while carrying the key chain of “so special” gifted by him,
vanished in thin air.
Not only happiness was sucked out
of her life but all the envious and detesting feeling filled the void.
Now, she didn't want to get married.
The cell ring made her go into fits of horror. The name of her fiancée brought
the nausea. She got entangled in webs of detest. Everyone tried to explain her
with logical prudence but it was as impossible for her to understand like mixing
oil and water. She wanted her prior life back, but the grey matter got the
screwed up so badly, the happy memories of past were mere history. After this
intense drama, her parents told her fiancée about her laser surgery revealing
every truth, but the disaster had already happen. Nothing got reversed but
worse.
The reality was losing meaning
and then she was forced to get into holy matrimony. She sat there at her wedding in complete
silence, making all the guest wonder. Her paranoid has increased since then, once
so lovely, lively, mundane girl have become entangled in the webs of distraught
future. Her treatment has started. There is always a silver lining and I am
just trying to catch one.
Some days turn out to be good,
some bad and some not worth to be mentioned. This is one of the stories of
unexpected human mind.
“A
personality disorder which is marked by persistent indifference to social
interaction and a limited range of emotional experience and expression. It
begins in early adulthood. These persons neither seek nor enjoy close
relationship and have no desire to be part of a family. They lead lonely lives
and have no close friends or confidants, sexual interests and participation in
pleasurable activities are almost nonexistent rarely do they experience strong
emotions such as anger and joy. They appear cold and aloof and rarely
reciprocate gestures or facial expressions such as smiles or nods” [TABER'S
MEDICAL DICTIONARY]
MORAL
“The unexpected journey of human mind,
Unseen, unheard destination of unique kind”
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